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POWER TO PROTECT

Then Jesus, knowing all that would happen to Him, came forward and said to them, “Whom do you seek?” They answered Him, “Jesus of Nazareth.” Jesus said to them, “I am He.” … When Jesus said to them, “I am He,” they drew back and fell to the ground. So He asked them again, “Whom do you seek?” And they said, “Jesus of Nazareth.” Jesus answered, “I told you that I am He. So, if you seek Me, let these men go.” This was to fulfill the word that He had spoken: “Of those whom You gave Me I have lost not one.” (John 18:4-5a, 6-9)

I doubt any of the guards had ever met such a prisoner—one who had such power He could blow them backward with the simple words, “I am.” Because if you look at the Greek words, that is what Jesus said to them—and it meant more than simply, “I am the one you are looking for.” “I AM” is the Name of God (see Exodus 3:14). Jesus is God in human flesh—and by speaking His own Name, He made it completely clear that He was the one in control, even of His own arrest.

So Jesus has all power—but how does He use it? Not to protect Himself, but to protect the people God the Father gave Him. Jesus will not allow His disciples to be arrested with Him. Jesus alone will go into suffering, death, and resurrection, because He is our protector as well—the One who saves us from the power of evil at the cost of His own life.

WE PRAY: Thank You, Lord, for protecting me with Your love and power. Amen.


Lenten Devotions were written by Dr. Kari Vo.
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SIGN AND REALITY

While [Jesus] was still speaking, Judas came, one of the twelve, and with him a great crowd with swords and clubs, from the chief priests and the elders of the people. Now the betrayer had given them a sign, saying, “The one I will kiss is the Man; seize Him.” And he came up to Jesus at once and said, “Greetings, Rabbi!” And he kissed Him. Jesus said to him, “Friend, do what you came to do.” (Matthew 26:47-50a)

It must have been dark under those trees, in spite of the full moon. Jesus stands waiting while His eleven disciples jump up, startled—confused, half-awake, rubbing their eyes. Through the trees a crowd is coming, carrying swords and clubs, and probably torches, too. And with them, Judas—who goes straight up to Jesus and greets Him with a kiss.

What was Judas thinking—that Jesus would try to avoid His own arrest in the darkness? Apparently so, or why would he need a special way of identifying Him for the guards?

But Jesus never intended to run away. Judas had the sign of love, but Jesus had the reality. And for our sake, He would go through with it all—His arrest, suffering, death, and rising to life again on the third day. Because He loves us that much.

WE PRAY: Lord, thank You for loving us so. Amen. 


Lenten Devotions were written by Dr. Kari Vo.
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HOPE AND LOVE

And they went to a place called Gethsemane. And [Jesus …] took with Him Peter and James and John, and began to be greatly distressed and troubled. And He said to them, “My soul is very sorrowful, even to death. Remain here and watch.” And going a little farther, He fell on the ground and prayed that, if it were possible, the hour might pass from Him. And He said, “Abba, Father, all things are possible for You. Remove this cup from Me. Yet not what I will, but what You will.” (Mark 14:32a, 33-36)

Sometimes hope produces the worst pain. Up to this point, Jesus has been saying to His disciples, very clearly, that He would in the future be handed over to His enemies, be mocked and flogged and crucified—and then He would rise from the dead. There has been no doubt in anything He said.

But now, here in the garden on the last night of His life, it looks like that perfect conviction has been withdrawn. Like any man, Jesus is subject to the tortures of hope—the thought that just possibly, God the Father might find another way to save the world. A way that would allow Jesus to escape the future He has known for years.

And so, like any man, He prays. He prays in desperation, asking God for that possible loophole—but always adding, “Yet not what I will, but what You will.” Because He loves the Father, and He loves us, and He is not willing to lose us for any price—even His own life.

And when hope fails Him, Jesus turns back to love. He rouses His disciples so they can make their getaway. And then He turns His face to the cross, for all of us.

WE PRAY: Dear Savior, thank You. I love You. Amen.


Lenten Devotions were written by Dr. Kari Vo.
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BACKSTABBER

[Jesus] testified, “Truly, truly, I say to you, one of you will betray Me.” The disciples looked at one another, uncertain of whom He spoke. One of His disciples, whom Jesus loved, was reclining at table at Jesus’ side, so Simon Peter motioned to him to ask Jesus of whom He was speaking. So that disciple, leaning back against Jesus, said to Him, “Lord, who is it?” Jesus answered, “It is he to whom I will give this morsel of bread when I have dipped it.” So when He had dipped the morsel, He gave it to Judas, the son of Simon Iscariot. Then … Satan entered into Judas. Jesus said to him, “What you are going to do, do quickly.” … So, after receiving the morsel of bread, Judas immediately went out. And it was night. (John 13:21b-27, 30)

Jesus must have been lying very close to Judas to be able to hand him the morsel and speak to him without being overheard. I suspect Jesus’ back was to Judas’ chest, just as John’s was to Jesus’ own. If so, Jesus went through much of the meal with His betrayer literally at His back—and He knew it, too.

And yet, that knowledge didn’t stop Jesus from trying to turn Judas back to the right way. He washed his feet. He honored him with the morsel. He even confirmed that He knew Judas was going to betray Him (see Matthew 26:25).

Jesus loved Judas to the very end. Jesus loves us—and when we sin, He shows us the same mercy, trying to turn us back to Himself. He refuses to give up on us—even when it means suffering death on a cross. And now that He has risen from the dead, He gives us life and love with Him forever.

WE PRAY: Lord, keep my heart faithful to You forever! Amen.


Lenten Devotions were written by Dr. Kari Vo.
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WASHING FEET

[Jesus] rose from supper. He laid aside His outer garments, and taking a towel, tied it around His waist. Then He poured water into a basin and began to wash the disciples’ feet and to wipe them with the towel that was wrapped around Him. … [Afterward] He said to them, “Do you understand what I have done to you? … If I then, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also ought to wash one another’s feet.” (John 13:4-5, 12b, 14)

What is this washing, that Jesus does to us and commands us to do to each other? Why is it so important that He says, “If I do not wash you, you have no share with Me”? We get a clue when Jesus says, “The one who has bathed does not need to wash, except for his feet, but is completely clean.” There’s only one bath I know of that makes a person clean forever, and that is Baptism. And so this daily washing of feet—what is it, then? It must be the ongoing, continuing forgiveness Jesus gives us for the sins we commit every day of our lives. When He washes us, He restores us to the perfect cleanness He gave us at Baptism, and we are glad.

Jesus can do this because He has paid the price for our cleansing at the cross with His own blood. Because of His death and resurrection, we who trust in Him are no longer sinners doomed to destruction; we are God’s own children, who live with the life Jesus gives us. And we follow His example, washing the feet of our brothers and sisters, forgiving them when they sin against us—just as Jesus forgave us.

WE PRAY: Dear Jesus, thank You for washing me! Amen. 


Lenten Devotions were written by Dr. Kari Vo.
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PREPARED

Then came the day … on which the Passover lamb had to be sacrificed. So Jesus sent Peter and John, saying, “Go and prepare the Passover for us, that we may eat it.” They said to Him, “Where will You have us prepare it?” He said to them, “Behold, when you have entered the city, a man carrying a jar of water will meet you. Follow him into the house that he enters and tell the master of the house, ‘The Teacher says to you, Where is the guest room, where I may eat the Passover with My disciples?’ And he will show you a large upper room furnished; prepare it there.” (Luke 22:7-12)

It seems clear that Jesus has already made His own preparations for this meal. To have a man instead of a woman carrying water in that culture is strange enough that it looks like a prearranged signal—and perhaps it is. The master of the house clearly knows who the unnamed “teacher” is, and has already furnished the upper room for them. Jesus wants privacy. He plans to let His enemies seize Him, but not until after He has a last meal with the disciples, when He can comfort, teach, and prepare them for what’s to come.

So now the disciples prepare—sacrificing a lamb, cooking it, and getting together all the other dishes. And dinner is ready.

God the Father has also made His preparations by sending Jesus Himself as the perfect, sinless Lamb who will take our sins away forever. As a result of His death and resurrection, all of us who trust in Him will eat at the heavenly banquet with Jesus our Savior when He returns in glory.

WE PRAY: Lord, prepare my heart for You. Amen.


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TIME TO DIE

Now among those who went up to worship at the feast were some Greeks [asking,] “Sir, we wish to see Jesus.” … And Jesus answered them, saying, “The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit. … Now is My soul troubled. And what shall I say? ‘Father, save Me from this hour’? But for this purpose I have come to this hour. Father, glorify Your Name. … Now is the judgment of this world; now will the ruler of this world be cast out. And I, when I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all people to Myself.” He said this to show by what kind of death He was going to die. … [Then Jesus] departed and hid Himself from them. (John 12:20, 21b, 23-24, 27-28a, 31-33, 36b)

Jesus has a strange reaction to the coming of the Greeks! He goes into an anguished meditation on His own death, and then He leaves and hides Himself. Why?

Jesus’ own short ministry has been spent mainly among the Jews; He knows that evangelizing the nations is the job of His church. When this delegation of Greeks comes to Jesus, it shows that the age of the church is beginning, and Jesus Himself is about to die. And this fact overwhelms Him.

And yet, we have reason to be glad. Because Jesus overcomes the temptation to save Himself, and submits once again to the cross and resurrection. Which means that now, anyone who believes in Him, Jew or Gentile, has life forever.

WE PRAY: Lord, thank You for choosing to save us. Amen.
 

Lenten Devotions were written by Dr. Kari Vo.
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GOING WITH JESUS

Six days before the Passover, Jesus therefore came to Bethany, where Lazarus was, whom Jesus had raised from the dead. So they gave a dinner for Him there. Martha served, and Lazarus was one of those reclining with Him at table. Mary therefore took a pound of expensive ointment made from pure nard, and anointed the feet of Jesus and wiped His feet with her hair. The house was filled with the fragrance of the perfume. (John 12:1-3)

Have you ever smelt pure nard? It has a strong, penetrating smell—the kind of smell that sticks to your skin for days afterward. No wonder the house was filled with the fragrance!

Mary’s hair must have smelled of it for quite a while. Jesus’ feet as well—maybe even to the cross. If so, then she was able to give Him one gift of love that would go with Him all the way to His death—where she herself could not go.

Because where Jesus was going, none of His disciples could go—not even those who loved Him most. John and Mary stood under His cross watching. But they could not help Him as He carried the burden of human sin and shame—as He faced temptations to come down from the cross, as His enemies dared Him—as He fought the powers of evil, and won. Jesus did that alone, because He loved us. And He rose from the dead three days later, to come back to us triumphant—sharing with us the gift of His own everlasting life.

WE PRAY: Lord, stay with me always. Amen.



Lenten Devotions were written by Dr. Kari Vo.
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Hello friends! With Femslash February nearly but not yet over, I am excited to share my very subjective list of favorite fics featuring Helly R./Helena Eagan from Severance. It's not a huge ship (it currently has a bit over 100 fics on AO3), but I nonetheless hope that these recs are useful, regardless of whether you're already a Hellyena (also known as Hellyna) shipper, or just interested in learning more about this niche F/F pairing.

A Brief Ship Manifesto )

So yeah. Selfcest body-sharing toxic yuri. What more is there to say.

Notes
All fics were published on AO3 before the end of February 2026, and are complete.

Please note that many of these fics feature sex or masturbation, dubious consent, canon-typical suicide attempts and self-harm, incest, and general mind-fuckery. I tried to note when specific topics come up, but consider this a blanket warning.

12 Fic Recs )
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THEREFORE

Now a certain man was ill, Lazarus of Bethany, the village of Mary and her sister Martha. … So the sisters sent to Jesus, saying, “Lord, he whom You love is ill.” But when Jesus heard it He said, “This illness does not lead to death. It is for the glory of God …. Now Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus. [Therefore,] when He heard that Lazarus was ill, He stayed two days longer in the place where He was. (John 11:1, 3-4a, 5-6)

The Greek word in verse 6 is usually translated “therefore”—as in, “Jesus loved this family. Therefore, when He heard that they needed Him, Jesus deliberately stayed away till it was too late.”

What! That’s a strange way to love someone, isn’t it? You hear that their brother needs you desperately; therefore, you stay just where you are. Most people would call that hate, not love.

Jesus knows how it’s going to look and sound. The family will not understand until the end that God is doing this on purpose, to glorify Jesus. They will be hurt. Who can Jesus trust to bear that pain? Who loves Jesus enough to trust Him, even when He comes late with no excuse?

Mary and Martha love Jesus that way. And their trust is justified when He raises their brother from the dead.

We love Jesus because He died and rose to save us. And yet, we too have times when it looks like God has come to us “too late” for what we wanted or needed. What then?

WE PRAY: Lord, make me someone who loves and trusts You, even when I don’t understand Your ways. Amen.


Lenten Devotions were written by Dr. Kari Vo.
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HOSANNA!

And Jesus entered the temple and drove out all who sold and bought in the temple, and He overturned the tables of the money-changers and the seats of those who sold pigeons. … And the blind and the lame came to Him in the temple, and He healed them. But when the chief priests and the scribes saw the wonderful things that He did, and the children crying out in the temple, “Hosanna to the Son of David!” they were indignant and said to Him, “Do You hear what these are saying?” And Jesus said to them, “Yes; have you never read, “‘Out of the mouth of infants and nursing babies You have prepared praise’?” (Matthew 21:12, 14-16)

It’s interesting that the one thing the religious leaders bring up to Jesus is the fact that the children are crying out, “Hosanna to the Son of David!” They don’t mention the merchants He drove out of the temple courts; they don’t mention the healings, though they saw them. Apparently they feel on safe grounds complaining about the children—who are recognizing Jesus as the promised Messiah of David’s family.

Jesus refers the leaders to Psalm 8:2b, which continues this way: “… because of Your foes, to still the enemy and the avenger.” According to Jesus, the praise of the children comes directly from God; the complaints come from God’s enemies.

And no surprise, for what the children are saying is “Hosanna”—which translates, “Save us!” Jesus has indeed come to save them and all of us as well. Through His death He will break the power of God’s enemies, including the devil; and through His resurrection He will give life to all God’s children who trust in Him.

WE PRAY: Thank You for saving me, Lord. Amen.


Lenten Devotions were written by Dr. Kari Vo.
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IN A HURRY

And they were on the road, going up to Jerusalem, and Jesus was walking ahead of them. And they were amazed, and those who followed were afraid. And taking the twelve again, He began to tell them what was to happen to Him, saying, “See, we are going up to Jerusalem, and the Son of Man will be delivered over … and they will condemn Him to death … And they will mock Him and spit on Him, and flog Him and kill Him. And after three days He will rise.” (Mark 10:32-34)

I’m not surprised to hear that Jesus’ followers were afraid. I would be, too, if Jesus told me all about His suffering and death—and not for the first time, either (see Mark 8:31, 9:31).

But the really weird bit is that Jesus seems to be in a hurry to get there! He is walking ahead of them. Who hurries to their own execution?

Jesus does, apparently. He says while preaching, “I have a Baptism to be baptized with, and how great is My distress until it is accomplished!” (Luke 12:50). And He says to Judas when he goes to betray Him, “What you are going to do, do quickly” (John 13:27b).

It’s a very human thing, to want to get suffering over and done with. And Jesus is human, just as we are. But the hurry is probably more than that—because Jesus is on a mission to save us all, the people He loves, from the power of evil. He knows His own death and resurrection will set us free and give us life. No wonder He’s in a hurry!

WE PRAY: Lord, thank You for loving me so much. Amen.


Lenten Devotions were written by Dr. Kari Vo.
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LISTEN TO HIM!

And as [Jesus] was praying, the appearance of His face was altered, and His clothing became dazzling white. And … Moses and Elijah … who appeared in glory and spoke of His departure, which He was about to accomplish at Jerusalem. … And as the men were parting from Him, Peter said to Jesus, “Master, it is good that we are here. Let us make three tents, one for You and one for Moses and one for Elijah.” … a cloud came and overshadowed them … And a voice came out of the cloud, saying, “This is My Son, My Chosen One; listen to Him!” (Luke 9:29, 30b-31, 33a, 34b, 35)

Peter makes his suggestion about the tents “as the men were parting from” Jesus. That sounds like Peter realized they were saying goodbye, and wanted to stop them—wanted to prolong the glorious moment with Jesus and the others, up on that mountain.

But it doesn’t work that way, does it? Even in our own lives, we get brief glimpses of the glory of God—and then we’re right back in the middle of chores and work and appointments. Or worse than that, we’re walking the road to Calvary—facing a kind of suffering that makes the glory seem like a distant memory.

When that happens, all we can do is obey God the Father who said, “This is My Son, My Chosen One: listen to Him!” Jesus knows the road to the cross very well. He knows suffering and death, and He knows resurrection, too. And when we have to walk those roads as servants of Jesus, He promises to be with us—because He has redeemed us. We are His.

WE PRAY: Lord, when trouble overwhelms me, help me listen to You! Amen.
 

Lenten Devotions were written by Dr. Kari Vo.
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PERSONAL

Now it happened that as [Jesus] was praying alone, the disciples were with Him. And He asked them, “Who do the crowds say that I am?” And they answered, “John the Baptist. But others say, Elijah, and others, that one of the prophets of old has risen.” Then He said to them, “But who do you say that I am?” And Peter answered, “The Christ of God.” And He strictly charged and commanded them to tell this to no one, saying, “The Son of Man must suffer many things and be rejected by the elders and chief priests and scribes, and be killed, and on the third day be raised.” (Luke 9:18-22)

I wonder what it was like for the disciples, invited into such a personal area of Jesus’ own life. I mean, it says that Jesus was praying alone—and yet, it also says, “the disciples were with Him.” And they would have heard every word He said, all the concerns on His heart—because in that time and place, people almost always prayed aloud. It must have been like being invited into Jesus’ heart.

Clearly Jesus had some very important things to talk with His Father about. His mission to save us from sin and death would have been at the top of the list. No wonder Peter was able to identify Jesus as “the Christ of God!” Though he doesn’t seem to have understood that Jesus was planning to suffer, die, and rise from the dead in order to carry out His work. Listening to Him pray, and living with Him daily, wasn’t enough for Peter to understand. Not yet. But we understand—because Jesus did these things for us, too.

WE PRAY: Thank You for loving me, dear Lord. Amen.


Lenten Devotions were written by Dr. Kari Vo.
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KNOWING JESUS’ HEART

On the third day there was a wedding at Cana in Galilee … When the wine ran out, the mother of Jesus said to Him, “They have no wine.” And Jesus said to her, “Woman, what does this have to do with Me? My hour has not yet come.” His mother said to the servants, “Do whatever He tells you.” Now there were six stone water jars … holding 20 or 30 gallons. Jesus said to the servants, “Fill the jars with water.” (John 2:1a, 3-7a)

I love Mary’s faith in her Son Jesus. When she asks Him for help and gets a mysterious answer, she doesn’t even bother arguing or asking questions. She just tells the servants, “Do what He tells you.”

And Jesus honors that! He does His very first miracle, turning water into wine. Jesus saves the party and the bridegroom’s reputation as a host. And Jesus’ brand-new disciples believe in Him.

What did Mary know about her Son that made her so confident? I think she knew that He is kind and compassionate, as well as endlessly creative. Maybe she didn’t expect the miracle, but she knew He would find a way to help, because His love would compel Him.

And it did—just as it compelled Jesus to go to the cross to suffer and die for us when His hour had finally come (see John 17:1). Because He loves us, He saved us from the power of evil; and when He rose from the dead, He promised to share that same life with all of us who trust in Him.

WE PRAY: Lord, I know Your heart. Thank You for saving me. Amen.

Lenten Devotions were written by Dr. Kari Vo.

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